Rebel made of a careless man's careful daughter

I am a 20-something who has always had resentment about my dad and his self-serving ways. I have a younger brother who pretends that my dad's moronic tendencies have not affected him much, but have two younger sisters that totally see how our dad's stupidity has affected us and how unfair it all is. I just need a place to vent totally honestly. I can usually delve through the bullsh*t his actions create, but when I look into my sisters' beautiful eyes I could just about be sent to prison for the things that I could do to my dad, If you catch my drift. This blog will be done in a very simple list form, you know numbered 1- 6 zillion as reasons my dad sucks. Feel free to send me suggestions because your ideas will likely be something I can use. Thanks for letting me vent. Oh, and I am still working on the rebel part. Stay tuned....
Love,
Careful Daughter

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

31-39

31. He didn't give me a birthday present. Not a GD thing. Gee, how can I ever say FU, I mean thank you....
32. He always has to be the center of attention, even if it isn't about him.
33. I just found out he most likely is not sober anymore. All the puzzle pieces are starting to fit together.
34. He keeps texting my MOM about how he misses me, yadda yadda. Yea right dude, she is TEAM JOLIE not team A**hole. Duh.
35. He never compliments me. Never has.
36. He got all up in arms when I told him about a guy I was dating (previously). WTF seriously? Its about 28 years too late for the "protective" vibe you loser.
37. I have been saving this one cuz it makes me LIVID to the core. I feel like an erupting volcano of hatred when I talk about it.... He had the AUDACITY to say he was going to attend KE's high school graduation ceremony because he "had every right to" ex-fu#&ing-cuse me? YOU HAVE PRECISELY NO RIGHT TO DO ANY SUCH THING. This is the exact moment I quit talking to him. He is lucky I was holding my dog as he started telling me this crap or I really truly would have hit him. I still kinda wanna give him a knuckle sandwich. WITH brass knuckles, thank you. Guess I should add them to my shopping list...
38. He made my sisters cry when I told them about #37. I do not lie to my sisters, I tell them the truth- the good, the bad, the ugly, and the utterly ABSURD (such as this). To see them cry actually rips the heart out of my chest and tears it into small bits. But could he give two sh*ts? Nope, cuz he "had every right", remember? Riiiiiight. EFF THAT.
39. He refused to help me tape up part of my bumper this winter that was falling off cuz I "am a big girl and can do it myself". Um excuse me, isn't that a fathers JOB? To deal with cars and such? Another red flag of his stupidity.

And with that, I give you one of the GREATEST "My dad sucks" songs by some guys who know what its like standing in my shoes. And guess what? Even after their fame and success, their dad still has no part in their lives. No shock there. Self-centered idiots NEVER get it I have decided. So Thank you Good Charlotte for being so badass to write this song and for giving me something to play with the volume all the way UP in my car and scream and cry as I do it. Thank you thank you thank you thank (Benji and Joel Madden, I am forever indebted)

Good Charlotte "Emotionless"
Hey dad
I’m writing to you
Not to tell you
That I still hate you
Just to ask you
How you feel
And how we fell apart
How this fell apart

Are you happy out there
In this great wide world
Do you think about your sons
Do you miss your little girl

When you lay your head down
How do you sleep at night
Do you even wonder if we’re alright
But we’re alright
We’re alright

It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there the nights that we cried
You broke my mother’s heart
You broke your children for life
It’s not ok but we’re alright

I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years
Learning how to survive
Now I’m writing just to let you know
I’m still alive

The days I spent
So cold, so hungry
Were full of hate
I was so angry
The scars run deep inside
This tattooed body
There’s things I’ll take
To my grave

But I’m ok
I’m ok

It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there the nights that we cried
You broke my mother’s heart
You broke your children for life
It’s not ok but we’re alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now I’m writing just to let you know
I’m still alive
And I’m still alive

Sometimes I forgive
Yeah, and this time
I’ll admit that I miss you
Said I miss you

It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there the nights that we cried
You broke my mother’s heart
You broke your children for life
It’s not ok but we’re alright

I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now I’m writing just to let you know
I’m still alive

And sometimes I forgive
This time I’ll admit
That I miss you
I miss you
Hey dad

I found this AWESOME live performance of this song. Its incredible. Give it a watch. Get the kleenex...

No comments:

Post a Comment