I am a Careful Daughter (along with my sisters) and my brother is a Careful Son

I want to be totally upfront about the inspiration for this blog;

1. My dad sucks. He is the Careless Man I am talking about.

2. I have the most incredible sisters in the history of this entire universe and I would do anything humanly possible to protect and love them but there is this big thorn in my side that is called "DAD" who has hurt them more than any person should, especially him since he happens to be their father.

*Sidebar... its gonna be tough to no cuss on this blog I just realized. There are so many choice words I would like to use to explain the careless man.

3. My brother is trying to be a self-sufficient adult and wants to act as though I take this situation too personally. HOW ELSE AM I SUPPOSED TO TAKE IT? Is there anything more personal than family? I think no. My brother deserves more than what he gets from the careless man and I pray he realizes that and doesn't feel he should just be tough and not let it affect him. Like it or not, it affects us all.

4. Taylor Swift. You didn't see that coming, did you? :) Her new song "Mine" is what gave me the inspiration for this blog. I have been thinking about it for a long time, but never got going. In her new song she describes the girl as a "Careless Man's Careful Daughter" and that line hit me like a ton of bricks. Thats me. Thats KK (baby sister) and KE (little sister). SO US. Sometimes I am absolutely blown away by how someone else can verbalize the words that are hanging on my lips. Taylor Swift did this for me with this song. Cut straight through all the BS and said what I needed to say. Thanks for the help TSwizzle. I owe ya one.

5. My puppy. Although I did not give birth to her, she is my baby. I would do absolutely anything for her, to make her happy, keep her healthy, give her the best life imaginable. And she is a dog. Not to diminish the fact that she is my BABY, my child, as far as I am concerned. She is nuzzled next to my side as I write this and I have this overwhelming feeling of love, to her and from her, that is unique to the two of us. I have no kids of my own (yet) and I can only imagine that if I am so passionate about a K-9 how amazing it would feel to have my own human baby. Look out world. Someday I know I will have that chance and its gonna be, well, amazing. This is why it is so utterly baffling to me that the Careless Man can up and leave his own children like he has. I drop my dog off to get groomed for an hour and I cry in the car on the way home because I miss her. How is it possible to have absolutely no regard for anyone other than your pathetic self? I am guessing its rather lonely, and to be frank, he deserves it.

With that said, here we go. I often forget how much this Careless Man really does eff with my life daily, whether I realize it or not, and I started bawling like a baby as I began this post. Wow. Even after all these years, the pain doesn't stop, subside, go away, or end. If anything it feels worse because I see the world more for what it is and cannot imagine the amount of selfishness required to be the worlds most Careless Man. From here on out, that is his name "Careless Man". He is Dad to no one.

Here is the Taylor Swift song I am speaking of:

"Mine " by Taylor Swift

You were in college, working part-time, waiting tables
Left a small town and never looked back
I was a flight risk, with a fear of fallin'
Wondering why we bother with love, if it never lasts

I say, "Can you believe it?"
As we're lyin' on the couch
The moment, I can see it
Yes, yes, I can see it now

Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the fist time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward, and we're takin' on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

But we got bills to pay
We got nothin' figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes

This is what I thought about:

Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the fist time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Oh, oh, oh, oh

And I remember that fight, two-thirty AM
You said everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out, crying, and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye, cause that's all I've ever known
Then, you took me by surprise
You said, "I'll never leave you alone."

You said, "I remember how we felt, sitting by the water.
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time.
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter.
She is the best thing that's ever been mine."

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you believe it?
We're gonna make it now
And I can see it

I can see it now

Watch the video below from cmt.com Its worth a viewing, trust me....

Mine: "Speak Now"